Posted in #Poetry, #void, Love

Something of me…?

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There’s nothing in my heart that is left to say or that I want to, though I know that picture of yours, still etched somewhere in my heart, reminding me of you and us, staring into me, piercing my soul like you once did. All of that love has turned into something unnamed. I can’t even tell what’s more intoxicating or what was? You or this feeling I still have. A feeling I can’t embrace, a feeling I can’t withdraw, of something lost, or someone or me? I thought it was just my heart, but I was wrong all along, you took some thing more precious. And I still don’t know, how did I let you slip by through the walls I made so high? How you reached to what I thought was just mine and once there you battered it, something of that everything I ever had. Withering away all of that, piece by piece, how I wish if it was just my heart and nothing else and nothing more. I tried holding on for so long, until you wrecked it all. I put in all the trust I had and you crumbled it all. All the pieces of my life that made me whole, you annihilated. All of them, Until you reached the last piece, and  you took away me from me, you snatched what I believed was just mine, and you disappeared like you were never there.

@thelostsoul

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Posted in #life, #Poetry, Love

Chimera???

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You followed my dream last night
Cradled in your arms,
We were together yet again,
In the rhythms of the song
Your breaths played on my skin
I felt solace,
With my head on your heart
Your warm embrace
I smiled,
Looking at your eyes
As you kissed mine
You held me so close
As if you were always here
Never gone,
Whispering in my ears
Sweet words of love
That’s all I ever want to hear
You asked me to sleep,
Cuddled in your arms
I slept peacefully,

And I dreamt of you,
Entwined together
You kissing, the sleeping me
And you are holding my hands,
All the promises of forever
Walking on the shore,
We are watching the waves,
You picked me in your arms
You are all smiles
A sweet nudge on my nose,
I am losing in you,
And in the captivating breeze,
Looking at the sun,
All the colors in the horizon fade away,
And the day turned into night,
Still clung to your arms,
In symphony of our hearts,
I slept,
You followed my dreams,

Now, I am all lost,
I don’t know
What’s dream? Or real anymore,
That is what your love has done to me
That I never want to wake up
From this trance I am in
I kept falling in the hypnosis
As if your love is the abyss,

Getting pulled towards you
Like a magnet
You followed me in my dream,
Last night,
Or this? Previous one
Or the next?
I have lost all connection,
With my existence or sensibility
This world I made with you
This world that is you,
You are here? Are you?
Tell me please,
Is this real?
Or Chimera?

@thelostsoul

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Posted in #Poetry, Love

Stay…

 

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Stay right here
Close to me,
Stay by my side, my love
Walk besides me,
Stay,
Till my soul wishes to be lost
Lost in you,
Till you are in sync with my heartbeat
And you are my breath
Just stay,
Till then stay by my side,
And Stay…

Till the sun turns into ashes,
And this sky falls,
Till the stars come together to celebrate
Togetherness of ours,
Stay by my side,
Be within me like a Melody to the song
Like soulful hymn
To let me love you
Like you are my religion
Stay till then,
And Stay,

Until your thoughts drench me in love,
Like rains douse this Earth
And stay with me like the tides moves with the ocean,
Like the clouds in the sky
To be the chaos in my serenity, stay
Stay with me like that pouring rain
On the inches of my skin,
And stay…

Till you are not etched in me
And my heart
Us being together like Moon and the light
Tangled through fate
Till we aren’t written in each other’s destiny
Stay by my side,
And Stay…

Till I fade away or you
In time or you in me or me in you
Stay with me
Stay by my side
Walk besides me
Till I am lost
And you are found
And we are together again
Somewhere
Not on the crossroads
Not divided
But as one
Stay with me
Stay by me
Stay
And Stay…

@thelostsoul

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Posted in #Poetry, Love, Random musings

At the Crossroads..

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Meet me at the crossroads
Hold my hand
Entangle my fingers in yours
And don’t let go
Move ahead with me
Under the night sky
With zillions of stars watching us,
But we glistening more in love.
Embrace me in your arms
Pull me closer
Never to let go!
Walk with me
Towards the dawn
That ray of sun touching us
Put your arm around me
Entwine together
The hue of the sky colouring,
You and me
Let’s paint the world
In colours only known to us
Love me some more
Make me your canvas
And draw your love
On these roads
Let’s move ahead
Till the dusk
In the rains
Below the rainbow
Meet me again
That same place
To walk hands in hands
Eyes in eyes
Shimmering with love,

Meet me there
Under the blue sky
At the crossroads…

@thelostsoul

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Posted in #blogging, #Poetry, Heart, Love, Strength, Writing

Beautiful Purple Sky

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I was just walking by
While turning towards my house
I just looked at the sky
Just like that
I felt something,
Like the sky talking to me
Something moved I felt
And a ping of pain in my heart
The sky looked the same
As it was the day, that day we met.

I lost my way then
For I forgot where I was coming from
Or going to?
Is that my home?
Or was it you?
Now you aren’t with me, do I have any?
Any home?

My heart screamed!!
No one heard though
My eyes were searching
Something? Or you?
I looked at the sky again
Is it same ? Or is it changed?
It isn’t that anymore
Isn’t it?
Because you aren’t that anymore,
I saw it changing colours
Just like you,
The pinkish hue
Turned some pale
Like me!

Was I lost? Or did I loose you?
Or did I loose my mind?
Was it just me? Or I saw?
I saw the sky crying
Felt some tears,
From my eyes?
Or was it rain?
That pain knocked again
Which I thought have gone?

Why do I feel lost? When,
When there’s nothing I did lost
Loosing you? You never really did
Exist for me but yourself!!
I was here then
And I was alone
I knew how to walk
I know how to move on, on my own
And though I thought I made you,
You never were my home!!

There it was,
I got my way again
With the moving sky
Turning shades
Changing colours
While moving ahead
I recognise that smile
The one before you,
Or anyone else
I looked at the sky for one last time
I knew this colour
This colour,
I know I was moving in the right direction
The sky smiled
And I smiled at it too,
And I smiled some more
Under this new
This new, beautiful,
Beautiful Purple Sky!!!

The Lost Soul 

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Posted in #blogging, #life, #Poetry, Heart, Love, Writing

In the Twilight!!!

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Come closer to listen what my soul speaks 

But my lips couldn’t…..

Bring me back to life
Give me some more breathes
Love me a little more this time
Make me alive again
This life
This heart
All I could ever give
Have it all and just love me once
Love me once more
Make this heart beat again
Hold me together
Take away this pain
I did try
I tried
Try and try
To ease this suffocation
All in vain!!
I need you more
I want you
Will you please fill this emptiness?
Or Am I destined to be drowned forever?
Will this murkiness ever fade?
Or Is It just me who have lost all colours?
Do you hear my pleas?
Or shall I screech in the silence ?
Or is It ambiguous what I say?
Am I Lost?
Will you please find a way ?
Reach out to me
Take me out of this abyss
Will you?
I am screaming
And sinking
Shrieking
And screaming
And grieving
Hold my hand once more
Take me out
Show me the dawn
Before my heart sets in the dusk
Give me a rainbow
Give me life
Oh! Please one more time!!
Before I reach the horizon
Meet me once more
Meet me there
Be my earth
Make me your sky
Show me the light
Meet me one last time
Give me some more breathes
Just hold my hand
Embosom me
Meet me there
In the rain
And in the Twilight…..

@thelostsoul_writes

The Lost Soul

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Posted in #blogging, #life, Love, Unsent letter, Writing

Culmination… a letter

25A714F7-34C7-4EAB-9E53-A6EACAD87EBA.jpegLoving you was the most beautiful feeling I ever had and I can not deny, it still is. Though this can not change the other fact that it is the most hurting feeling, I ever felt too. I never thought love can do so much to anyone. But you did. Feeling all those things for you did.
When I fell for you, I was on my weakest, most vulnerable. I can not say it otherwise but yes, you are the one who made me, what I am.
From my most vulnerable to what I am now, I know I have become stronger.
Always hurting me with your words, making me beg for your love, I always believed in all the lies you said, And I always cursed me, over and over again. feeling i am the one who is wrong, i never did realise it was always you.
How many nights I have cried, I don’t really know, wanting it so bad to end. Waiting for these heartbeats to stop for once and for all. How many days I tried to end this life.
But then again your love, or the love I felt for you kept me going. And I kept on loving you like this is what I am supposed to do. And it took me so long to accept this fact that am not supposed to keep begging you for that love.  I never knew I will grow out of this feeling, But I did. 
I never realised I can love you and still move ahead because to wait for you is like to wait for all the stars in the galaxy to fall and that’s never gonna happen. When in a busy day, slightest of your memory used to fill my eyes, I didn’t cry at all when you said it’s over. And last night when you called and said all those things again,
I didn’t cry at all. Not a single tear, I didn’t curse my self again, I felt a calm. When you said this is the last time, I didn’t felt anything but a peace.
And I realised I am not supposed to cry over you. To love is the most beautiful feeling one can ever have and I am glad I know that feeling so well and oh! I pity you, you won’t know it. You won’t ever.
Move on is nothing but a myth. We never really move on from the one we love. Yes, to keep the memories, cherishing them is what I Am supposed to do not crying my eyes out.
To love is what we all are supposed to do… and me for one, I am full of oceans of love and I know that, its just that now I know, I need to love myself first and foremost and no one else really matters….

@thelostsoul

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Posted in #blogging, #void, Heart break, Lost love, Love, Writing

Reminiscences….

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You were always like this. And when I loved you, somewhere I knew, you won’t stay but I still loved you because I felt like I craved you for so long that even I don’t remember. You filled those empty parts of me, which I thought can’t ever be filled. And yet I knew you are a disaster I am falling into. And still I fell, for it was meant to be. If not, I wouldn’t have ever known the love, that hurt,  the pain, the feeling in tears, and still a smile on my lips, that you once touched them. You filled me and then emptied me again. Now the parts won’t be filled ever. I feel I can’t reach that level of saturation again.Now this Void will persist forever. You were here and now you aren’t. Like you are gone, and took this life out of me. I knew all of It and still, still I was there with you, loving you, giving all of me to you because it was meant to be, and because you,my love is the most hurting,yet most beautiful, ecstatic yet tormenting mistake of my life…. And I don’t regret an ounce of it for I loved you with all of my being, knowing what a destruction you are. I was ready to be destroyed not because I was stupid, but because destruction only creates, and somehow this love I still have is because, it was with you once, and it will be here in my heart always and forever….

@thelostsoul

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Posted in Lost love, Love, Random musings, Writing

Random Ruminations

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When you are broken and broken beyond repair, you are hurt and are in despair. But loving that someone doesn’t change. Being broken into so many pieces and still loving that same person is something way beyond the control of heart. I always hear people saying move on, it’s okay. Leave. But what’s the point in letting go and moving on from that one person you felt you gave your soul to? How could you just move on from that love that you felt is eternal? And that is unexplainable. How broken you feel, how bad it hurts, you just keep holding on and somehow that is giving you purpose to live and to breathe and to exist.

You let yourself break to the saturation of breaking and it’s okay. It’s okay to be hurt. I know making any one person that much important is not a good thing but why not? I say. You loved that person and now just because that person isn’t loving you back you leave that love? It’s not called one sided love, it’s just love & it’s loving that person from a distance, and that is completely fine.
Does a poet ever stop admiring moon because the moon doesn’t respond to his words? No,right. Then how can one person stop loving another when it’s a connection beyond explanation. A connection that is felt and have no words.

I somehow have learned to live and to move forward, taking the pieces with me and no matter what I will carry them.
If that’s how it is then it is. And there are days when it will hurt like hell but then what’s the purpose of even living when you can’t accept the pain of your broken pieces? You tend to love and live in that one person. And I am doing just that. Because somehow you can’t Unlove, somehow that’s how it is meant to be.

And here I am again with all the boggling thoughts.

Thank you for being so patient and reading.

I am broken to be healed, I am lost to be found. And I will be found, till then.. let me be..

The Lost Soul

Posted in #Poetry, #void, Desires, Heart, Love

I do.

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I believe in magic
That some day you will see
And you will find
My love and Me
That at some point in time
You will know
How it hurts
I am yours but you aren’t mine
I believe in something
A kind of power
That one day you will fall
In love with me, again
Like you were before
That day it will rain
For this time it will be for ever
I believe in my love
That it is true
Only for you, ending never
It’s not easy
But I believe in us
That you will soon see me
Somewhere
And you will come
Close to me
Oh yes love
I believe in miracles
I believe in fairy tale
You will hold my hand
And take me to
A far away land
Where we’ll be in love
Beyond eternity
Yes baby
Till infinity..
I believe
I believe in dreams
Yes I do
For all of this I said
Are nothing
But my fragments
Of you and our memories
Etched in my heart
With your love
In my blood
Like a shadow
It won’t leave
Like a tattoo
It won’t fade
Even if it will
It’ll leave a mark
On my skin
No I can’t
I can’t win
Over this
Of your eyes
Of that smile
Oh this pain
Of this scar
Why are you away

why didn’t you stay?
Why can’t you love me?
Why are you this far?

Of all of these dreams
I am now made
Nothing of me
Something of you
Yes even then I still do
I believe in love
& I love you…

The Lost Soul.

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Posted in #life, Heart break, Lost love, Love, Unsent letter, Writing

#An Unsent Valentine letter.

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I keep on counting days. Not just days, I haven’t lost count of the moments I am breathing without you. Trust me it’s not easy to have a single breath without missing your words or smile or eyes or voice or all of you. I still remember the day I saw you, waiting for me, my heart skipped a beat. Oh it still beats in that rhythm. The rhyme you gave it. Yes. Still that.
It was Valentine, I thought it to be over soon. It didn’t. I missed you each second. I knew you weren’t. You won’t. Oh but my heart? It was desperately waiting for your text. Just a text. Because you don’t like calling. I waited. Waited. The moment I woke up in the morning with moist eyes, I waited till I cried myself to sleep. I hope you had a good sleep though. Or did you miss me? You probably didn’t. You never did. You never will.
I went to the same place, you took me. A wave like a tsunami hit me. Gushing memories all together like it was yesterday we were here, eyes lost in eyes, synchronising heart beats,knotted hands and hearts, you made me feel dancing butterflies. Deep blue were the skies. A blissful moment, now it was tormenting. Nothing was same. Neither you nor the moment. Except me. Still there. Lost in you. Living in the moment. Still.
I puffed in the air around me like trying to breathe in the scent of you and us from that day. And then I kept on walking my way. That’s what I have to do. Keep walking. I tried to turn and look back, then something in me said, No, don’t, it’s gone. It’s not there. Nothing is there anymore. Not you. Not the love.
I won’t run though, from all that we had. Because I still love you. I will always do. Even after whatever happened, whatever you did. I have something of you with me. Yes, the heartache and the memories.
I will keep loving you and living you,
Until the memories turn white.
Till I loose the sight. Oh dear I still haven’t lost hope. Not of you coming back, but of the believe that I will cope. With you. Your memory.
But till then, I will keep walking. Looking forward, Smiling. Without you. But with the remembrance of us.
Until some new memories aren’t made.
Till the time, I won’t fade.

The Lost Soul.

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Posted in #life, #Poetry, Heart break, Lost love, Love

Just Friends…?

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It’s not long ago
We were together
In that night club
I was drunk
So were you
We didn’t see things
As they were coming through
Intoxicating moment
Captivating you
Spellbinding eyes
Entangled fingers
Osculating lips
We were close
Connecting my soul to you
Amidst that screeching music
I heard you
Our eyes spoke
Driving me crazy
Drifting away
We vanished
In that kiss
Beyond magical
Perplexing me
I felt the tingle
In my each bone
I felt I was home
Butterflies whispering
In my heart
To the core.

Oh! But we are friends.
Aren’t we?
Are we still?
How do I tell?
How do I disclose?
My feelings changed
I fall for you
& I feel for you
Not as a friend
Anymore
I want you
For love and more
Oh baby I love you so much
I miss that touch
& I miss us
I want that time
Me in your arms
I want it to stop
I miss you each night
Waking up next, besides
Closed eyes.
But it’s all in here
Confined in my heart
I can’t tell you
Because you are a friend
Aren’t you?
But we kiss
Didn’t we?
Though I feel love
Don’t you?
Why can’t you?
Baby please
Hold me again
Embrace me
Kiss me again
Caress me
Will you please?
Baby don’t tease.

Then it’s okay
It’s okay I guess
Let’s keep it as it is
I know I will miss
You are my forever bliss.

So my love
To keep you with me
This is my only way
Let’s not end
What we have
So that we don’t end
Let’s just be friends…
Only friends.

The Lost Soul.

PS: I stumbled upon this sweet heart Regine on my blog. Kissonthewind, iamRegineNot going into details, this poem is dedicated to her & for her.

Posted in #life, #Poetry, Heart, Love

Summer Nights.

 

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Entangled eyes
Sparkling
Scintillating
Shimmering
You and me
Embracing
Our hearts
Racing
With the pace
So fast
Your fingers
Ruining the colour
Of my lips
Your breathes
Leaving
It’s marks on my skin
Kissing
Loosing
Moving
I loose myself
You in me
Under the thousand stars
In these wintery breeze
We flow
Towards the warmth
We fly
Caressing
Intertwining
Entwining
In emotions
Holding my hands
Carrying my heart
So perfectly
We fuse
Together
Like made for
Each other
Beaming
Gleaming
Alluring
In &Between
This deepest of ocean
Of Ecstasy
Fantasy
Serenity
We become one
Under the flickering
Bright
Glistening
Moonlight
Listen love
To this harmonious
Wind
Here comes
Our
Surreal

Ethereal
Summer Nights….

 

The Lost Soul.

 

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Posted in #Poetry, #void, Heart, Heart break, Lost love, Love

Where Ends Meet..

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Ever so Close
Still so apart
This never ending distance
Our love
This story
Still unfinished
Always Will be?

I was a Rainbow
With you
I still am,
In the night sky
I wrote our names
On the sands of time
Washed with the waves.

I still meet you
Your scent
Your memories
On the way
Getting lost
Between them
Waiting for you, Always
Me
This story
Our journey.
Will the welkin
Meet the Earth?
Will this wait ever end?

Will it be finished?

Your and my, Ours.
Love
This story.

It will be, The Day
When the sky will fall
And the two worlds will coincide
We will unite too
We will be completed
There
See love

Where the Ends meet….

The Lost Soul.

Posted in #life, #Poetry, Heart, Lost love, Love

Waiting, Aggravating.

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I breathe
Not live
Life? Have lost all its essence
Without your
Presence,
This suffocation
Of your absence
It’s stifling
You aren’t here
But I just saw you there?
There is no voice
Still I hear
Oh this silence
It’s deafening
Shattering
Pricking are the broken pieces,
Of that mirror and
Reflections of you
I see in them,
And I see you in Me
Somewhere.
I try
I run
To feel, To touch
But it’s not you
Never were
But your figment
Just a shadow
Ah! This fire
This Burn
Oh this anguish
This hurt
It’s choking me
It will kill
You buried all the vows
You took
Holding my hands
Inearth then, Me too
In the same land.
I will love you still
For my love for you is forever
Oh please my love
Do not cry ever
When I am gone
For I will still love
That Smile, oh so sweet.A Request?
If you can
Love me then, when I am not there.
Love me if you could
And see me in the memories
Like flowing river
Of the purest water
I will be there
And my love too
Floating
See me then,
Oh my love
I will be There
Waiting
Love me soon love, Please
Don’t make it Aggravating….

The Lost Soul. 

PS: I read this so amazing poem by my sweetheart Nancy, NancyBellaRose and she is so much amazing. The poem gave me goosebumps. It was in Hindi. In no way I could match her poem or it’s Essence. And in no way it’s transalation of her work, but her words struck a chord. And I wrote this. Her words were inspiration, my pain was the pen. Lots of love Nancy. Thank you so much.

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