Mosses

Our home was broken

Everything we created

Once celebrated

Wasn’t there no more

You and me

Are over now

Or it happened a long time ago

We didn’t notice

Or it was just me

Ignorant of all that was around

Darkness and the abyss

Me drowning

Watching from a distance

You are just standing there

You were no longer the same

The nights never felt so lonely

Winters weren’t this chilly

Your absence wasn’t just in my life

the void felt uneasy

Emptiness eating me up

Your fragrance was long gone

The kiss no more lingering

So is your love

A long forgotten dream

You and I

All that was between us

Is dying slowly

Or it was

Dead already

I am trying to believe otherwise

But reality is what I see

Walls are covered in mosses

And the dampness creeping in

It was empty from a long time

The room of you and me

Us are no more

So dead is the love

That once lived there.

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My Ignorant love

Do you not remember?

The laughter we shared

Still in my ears

Don’t you?

Have you forgotten?

The smiles of our lips

The deepest of kiss

Have you? 

Are you oblivious?

Of my heartache

That i miss still

The happiness

When you were here

Or you are just

Ignorant i think

Aren’t you?

You do remember everything

But you just don’t care

Do you?

Of my love

Of our togetherness

You don’t want to be

Part of us

No more

You never care

Of me and my love

Did you?

I won’t ask

Questions further

Of those i know

Answers already

I will be here anyway

Despite us ending

In this life

I will cherish

My love

Beyond this one

In my heart

Forever and ever.

©thelostsoul_writes

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My Constant

When we met

I felt something

Love I guessed

Is it love?

My heart full of emotions

Feelings so many

Butterflies swirling

Those deep breaths

My dizzy head

The goosebumps

Loving you came easy to me

In ways so many

So natural

Like I was born with it

You were deeply engraved

In my heart

Flowing in my blood

Etched in my bones

Each day

Brought closer

You to me

Me to you

And me to the realisation

That this is what love is

Loving you wasn’t

Just a sentiment

For me  

It was

And still is

A consistent choice

Something that my heart

Wants

Every minute of each hour

Every new day

In a room full of people

Among thousands

My eyes look for yours

In all the darkness

Your love is the light to me

Among trillions of stars

One shines the brightest

And you are

My glistening

Dazzling star

Chosen by my heart

Over and over again

Not just in this lifetime

But all those we lived

Beyond this and the next

In each one

You are

And you will be

My only Constant.

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The last sunset….

I close my eyes and there’s you

Besides me,

I hear the ocean

Giggles and laughs

Hands held

Entangled fingers

Walking barefoot

Sand beneath

I see us there

Sounds of waves turning around

And there’s us

Smiling together

Your touch

Like a winter breeze

Quivering lips

The warm embrace

There’s you and there’s me

Leaving footprints on the sand

Some of you and little of me

Shining under the golden sun

You and me

Us together

Your breath on my neck

like a drop of rain

Brown of the sand

White of the clouds

blue of the sky

Turquoise of the sea

 

All these colours

I see in you

The colour of us

Of me and you

A tinge of orange

And red of love

I see the hue

In the horizon

“That’s a long walk,

Let’s go back”

“A little time more,

Let the sun set”

 

I lost your hand

And I searched for you

And like all the dreams

I had

It wasn’t a new

I opened my eyes

And there was no one

Neither me nor you

 

When you left

You ablaze the sky

With the ocean

You, my love

Left me flickering

In the ever lasting desire

Darling,

You set alight

 all of my dawns

With all of my dusks

You burned us

And

The love of ours  

You set us

And

all of those sunsets On fire.

@thelostsoul_writes

 

 

Something of me…?

There’s nothing in my heart that is left to say or that I want to, though I know that picture of yours, still etched somewhere in my heart, reminding me of you and us, staring into me, piercing my soul like you once did. All of that love has turned into something unnamed. I can’t even tell what’s more intoxicating or what was? You or this feeling I still have. A feeling I can’t embrace, a feeling I can’t withdraw, of something lost, or someone or me? I thought it was just my heart, but I was wrong all along, you took some thing more precious. And I still don’t know, how did I let you slip by through the walls I made so high? How you reached to what I thought was just mine and once there you battered it, something of that everything I ever had. Withering away all of that, piece by piece, how I wish if it was just my heart and nothing else and nothing more. I tried holding on for so long, until you wrecked it all. I put in all the trust I had and you crumbled it all. All the pieces of my life that made me whole, you annihilated. All of them, Until you reached the last piece, and  you took away me from me, you snatched what I believed was just mine, and you disappeared like you were never there.

@thelostsoul

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Chimera???

You followed my dream last night
Cradled in your arms,
We were together yet again,
In the rhythms of the song
Your breaths played on my skin
I felt solace,
With my head on your heart
Your warm embrace
I smiled,
Looking at your eyes
As you kissed mine
You held me so close
As if you were always here
Never gone,
Whispering in my ears
Sweet words of love
That’s all I ever want to hear
You asked me to sleep,
Cuddled in your arms
I slept peacefully,

And I dreamt of you,
Entwined together
You kissing, the sleeping me
And you are holding my hands,
All the promises of forever
Walking on the shore,
We are watching the waves,
You picked me in your arms
You are all smiles
A sweet nudge on my nose,
I am losing in you,
And in the captivating breeze,
Looking at the sun,
All the colors in the horizon fade away,
And the day turned into night,
Still clung to your arms,
In symphony of our hearts,
I slept,
You followed my dreams,

Now, I am all lost,
I don’t know
What’s dream? Or real anymore,
That is what your love has done to me
That I never want to wake up
From this trance I am in
I kept falling in the hypnosis
As if your love is the abyss,

Getting pulled towards you
Like a magnet
You followed me in my dream,
Last night,
Or this? Previous one
Or the next?
I have lost all connection,
With my existence or sensibility
This world I made with you
This world that is you,
You are here? Are you?
Tell me please,
Is this real?
Or Chimera?

@thelostsoul

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Stay…

 

Stay right here
Close to me,
Stay by my side, my love
Walk besides me,
Stay,
Till my soul wishes to be lost
Lost in you,
Till you are in sync with my heartbeat
And you are my breath
Just stay,
Till then stay by my side,
And Stay…

Till the sun turns into ashes,
And this sky falls,
Till the stars come together to celebrate
Togetherness of ours,
Stay by my side,
Be within me like a Melody to the song
Like soulful hymn
To let me love you
Like you are my religion
Stay till then,
And Stay,

Until your thoughts drench me in love,
Like rains douse this Earth
And stay with me like the tides moves with the ocean,
Like the clouds in the sky
To be the chaos in my serenity, stay
Stay with me like that pouring rain
On the inches of my skin,
And stay…

Till you are not etched in me
And my heart
Us being together like Moon and the light
Tangled through fate
Till we aren’t written in each other’s destiny
Stay by my side,
And Stay…

Till I fade away or you
In time or you in me or me in you
Stay with me
Stay by my side
Walk besides me
Till I am lost
And you are found
And we are together again
Somewhere
Not on the crossroads
Not divided
But as one
Stay with me
Stay by me
Stay
And Stay…

@thelostsoul

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She…The immortal Her…

She is still
But that darkness within her
Screams,scream, screaming

That chaos inside
Screeches, screeching
She stares in the silence
Towards nihility
Blank,black gazing in nothingness

Something within her
Engulfs her and her thoughts
Deluge,deluging in hurt

She is still
That rage of emotions
Pulling her inside
Her storm boiling within
Towards the mountain and to her
Oscillating between

She is still
Like a calm sea
Before the arrival of tsunami
Her heart shuddering

Shivering
With the emptiness
Empty,empty,emptying

She is still
But she smiles
Mixed with the agony
She survives the suffering
She no more laments
But with the open arms
She embraces the hurt
That lava of anguish
No more kills her
She won’t sink
She dives deep within
The abyss of pain
And she rise
For now she know
How to emerge!!

She becomes the storm
She rules the darkness
With her chaos
She isn’t still anymore
She isn’t calm like that ocean
For she becomes the Destruction
She is the raging ocean
She isn’t still
She moves with the waters
Ruling the tides
She isn’t still
She isn’t still….

The Lost Soul

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I wish..

I wish it was easy
To forget and to let go
All of that
About you and me
The moments and that love
All those hugs
You kissing my head
My hands in your hands
Fingers entangled
I wish It was easy
Not to see you when I close my eyes
And not to remember
The way we were
And not as we are
So apart
Like that moon from the sky
And the stars from the earth
I wish I could touch you
Yet again
And feeling all those feels
Of your arms
And my head on your heart
Listening to those heart beats
Your breaths with mine
I wish I could sync again
My heart with yours
Beating in the same rhythm
Oh I just wish
You weren’t gone
Like the way you did
I wish all of that to come again
Me waiting for you
In the rain
And I wish you would come up
Hold me in your arms yet again
Warming me up by embracing
Me and my soul
I just wish you were here
To hold my hand
I wish
To just fix
This broken heart
And make it whole
Healing all those wounds
I wish
To be complete
And to be complete

Without You..

The Lost Soul

Just Friends…?

It’s not long ago
We were together
In that night club
I was drunk
So were you
We didn’t see things
As they were coming through
Intoxicating moment
Captivating you
Spellbinding eyes
Entangled fingers
Osculating lips
We were close
Connecting my soul to you
Amidst that screeching music
I heard you
Our eyes spoke
Driving me crazy
Drifting away
We vanished
In that kiss
Beyond magical
Perplexing me
I felt the tingle
In my each bone
I felt I was home
Butterflies whispering
In my heart
To the core.

Oh! But we are friends.
Aren’t we?
Are we still?
How do I tell?
How do I disclose?
My feelings changed
I fall for you
& I feel for you
Not as a friend
Anymore
I want you
For love and more
Oh baby I love you so much
I miss that touch
& I miss us
I want that time
Me in your arms
I want it to stop
I miss you each night
Waking up next, besides
Closed eyes.
But it’s all in here
Confined in my heart
I can’t tell you
Because you are a friend
Aren’t you?
But we kiss
Didn’t we?
Though I feel love
Don’t you?
Why can’t you?
Baby please
Hold me again
Embrace me
Kiss me again
Caress me
Will you please?
Baby don’t tease.

Then it’s okay
It’s okay I guess
Let’s keep it as it is
I know I will miss
You are my forever bliss.

So my love
To keep you with me
This is my only way
Let’s not end
What we have
So that we don’t end
Let’s just be friends…
Only friends.

The Lost Soul.

PS: I stumbled upon this sweet heart Regine on my blog. Kissonthewind, iamRegineNot going into details, this poem is dedicated to her & for her.

The Shattered Echoes.

 

They say Time heals. Time heals everything. Does that really? Not exactly. Time doesn’t heal anything truly.
Time, well it just makes the wound numb. It gives patience to suffer. To live with the pain. That’s it.
That pain is still there you know.
How it could go, when there is still something that is left inside. This heart, that hurt. A tear on the soul.
The fire that keeps on burning and blazing.The one desire to be with the one that shattered you and broke you. And you carrying the broken pieces ever so closely, the broken parts still love. The same one person who did break them and You.
This is out of your limits isn’t it? The belief that he still cares? That peek a boo and hide and seek with all those emotions and feelings. That is tormenting. Sometimes! No all the times.
It hurts like hell. At night it’s the silent scream. Some nights it’s just a storm and some, some nights it rains too.
Yet, as the day breaks, all those feelings vanish in the corner. They still lurk through, and then comes the moment when you are among the crowd and alone. When there’s screaming and noise and you are deaf.
The heart and the mind is at some mountain peak, there you are, jumping off that cliff.
Before you fall and you smash and you break, well someone snatch you back and once again you are saved.
But till when?

Sometimes giving up is the only option. But what about the stupid heart that keeps on holding on. That keeps on whispering… A little wait! May be. This “may be” wrench Within. At those moments , when it’s time to leave and let go something from within speaks again…. A little wait, Please! Wait! May be!
That May be is the language of broken dreams and a broken heart, They are the Shattered Echoes.

The Lost Soul. 

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Eventual Elucidation.

The world was shattered
When you left
The one I created
You fabricated,
My ears
Your voice
Your dreams
My eyes
My lips
Your smile
Your charm
My life
This was all
I ever coveted
Then you marooned,
Me with my heart
In the blues of
Despondency.

 
Transgressing everything
I drowned myself
Never ever
Reaching the shore
Alone
In the deepest oceans
Far and far.
You were my Aurora
Glittering with thy love
My life was luminous
Now without you
Everything was ruinous.

 
Oh! Where are thou?
My love?
My life is Eeyorish
Without thee.
I see no end, To
This excruciating pain
Anguishing torment
Without ending me.
Is extirpating one life
Elucidation of all?
Or is it?
Genesis of
An Ameliorate Life?
If it is?
I believe that is.
Embrace me,
Here I come
Entwine me
Oh Darkness
No more
I will sigh
Yes I see
I see now,
The end is nigh…

The Lost Soul.

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The Aching Aspiration.

 

That’s all I know, how in the morning you craved me and How you used to make love.The way you’d hold me. Caressing my face, The warm embrace.That and a little more.The time we spent and moments we shared, a springtime of my life.The laugh we both had on your silly jokes.And that kiss, in the car? All of these making my heart bleed like a knife.Now all of this is so far, those moments just were there.That first ice cream? Oh and that first road trip? Your funny smile and your lovely face, that used to make my heart beat race? I miss all of that and a lot more.That’s all I think now a days and nights too.What did you say?that I failed to hear.How to ask you all those questions, when you aren’t near.That is all I want to know.After all that affection,Why did you leave and why did you break?
Me, my heart and our dreams,
Why? Just why?
I wish I was and you too, we end up in another dimension, where you would love me like I do,and we are together,Yes, that will be Perfection.
That’s all I think.
All of this and nothing more.

The Lost Soul.

 

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Drenched in Magic.

 

These emotions
The sensations
This excitement
This fervour
The tingling of fingers
Moving on the bare
Skin
Your touch
These tingles
Oh They, Conjuration
Yes they are!
We together
Wrapping  each other
Staring within
Caressing verges
The hours of love
The assiduities
The Warmth
Tongue playing
Their own games
Breathes
Sighs
Enchanting scents
Your hands
The rubbing Thighs
This passionate kiss
Oh! A pure bliss
Entwined close
In a shower of love
We two bodies
One soul
Permeated in the wetness
Shivering
Shuddering
Oscillating
In the rain of impetuous
Ardour
Saturated
In flooding love
Oh our love
So romantic
Ecstatic
We two
We are soused
Drenched in magic.

The Lost Soul.

Enduring Essence

She still look out
Searches for him,
Traces
Of his presence
In the corners of the house
They made home
Only to find
The absence
Of him and the love
Still she sits in the nooks
To cherish
All that is left
And enduring is,
The essence
Of what they had
And it gives her
Peace of mind
For the warmth
That she shared
With him
A love
One of a kind
All of that,
And Some of her
He left behind
But she know
She believe that too
Though the moments
They spent
Are only few
They will be all
She will ever need
For yes he went,
He did leave
Something of his,
Scent of his breathe
Beats of his heart
A piece of himself
Unknowingly
For her to keep
And she is persevering
Him and his memories
Like a treasure
Enclosed in her soul
Like her part
She will keep it
For the love she does
Is enough for her
To love and to live
With him or without
She is his
For the life now
Also the next,
For the love she does
Ends Never
It will be there
For now
Beyond
For anything stays or no
Love Remains
Always,
Forever and Ever.

The Lost Soul. 

 

 

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